T-Cake's 2010 Summer Training Log

[T-Cake]

T-Cake's 2010 Summer Training Log

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It's only May 8, but I'm ready to get going on my summer training log and close out the old Winter/Spring one. I'm done with teaching for this year in about a month, and I want to look and feel better by then, so now is as good a time as any to get a head start. :coolred:

Here are some upcoming things about my summer and recent weeks:

I am taking the CSCS exam next Saturday for the 2nd time. I had to wait 3 months for the re-take; spending this week studying for that, so it's keeping me fitness-minded, that's for sure.
I haven't hit the iron religiously in a long time, so I'm ready for that. I plan to start this weekend off with some cardio, but I'm going to write up a plan that includes lifting and get started on the lifting portion Monday.
Cleaning up the diet; recently got over a cold and on the rebound from that, so any changes I make are GOOD and NEEDED. :nod:


That should really do it for now. I just need a fresh slate/log to start documenting what I'm doing, so here we go. No more funny business.

[Test-Daddy]

Ms. New Booty......Honored to be the first post in your new log! I did not see much funny business in your old log, so this one is going to be really good. Yes I always follow along....even if its from a distance. Good luck...and hopefully you see results equal to the work you put forth. I know you bust your ass!

[P Bo]

IN. (duh, of course)

[T-Cake]

Saturday, May 8, 2010

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Nutrition
1. Egg substitute, turkey sausage; Greek yogurt w/ blueberries
2. Protein shake w/ water
3. PWO: Light soy milk, protein, SF applesauce, ANPB, oats, banana (shake)
4. Cashews
5. Pumpernickel roll, sourdough roll; southwest eggroll (1); asparagus, black beans, corn-tortilla grilled fish tacos

Macros
2204 calories
33% protein
45% carbs
22% fat

Training
Cardio only.
1. 30 minutes rolling hill stepmill, L6-L10
2. 30 minutes 90s:30s HIIT on elliptical, L6-L8

BodyBugg Info
Calories BURNED: 2483
Calories CONSUMED: 2204
Calorie DEFICIT: 280

Breaking nearly even is a really good Saturday for me. Cut sugar again today, avoided dessert and the after dinner snack/item again. Was up early today, too, so it was a LONGGGG day full of lots of hunger pangs.

[Tweak]

Oh babygirl, you KNOW I'm in and you KNOW I love you and believe in you!

:cheer:

[T-Cake]

Sunday, May 9, 2010

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Nutrition
1. Egg, egg whites, turkey sausage, cheese; oatmeal, strawberries
2. PWO: Light soy milk, protein, SF applesauce, ANPB, oats, banana (shake)
3. Sushi made w/ brown rice
4. 4 boneless wings
5. SF Italian ice cup

Macros
2310 calories
21% protein
52% carbs
27% fat

Training
Cardio only.
1. 60 minutes Spinning class
2. 20 minutes rowing machine, steady-state
3. 20 minutes elliptical w/ arms, steady-state

BodyBugg Info
Calories BURNED: 2713
Calories CONSUMED: 2311
Calorie DEFICIT: 402

Just spent my evening chewing gum, avoiding the snack urges, and wrote down my new training plan that I will begin tomorrow. I'll have to be in the gym to get my training done at least 3 of the 4 mornings (Fridays I have cardio only, and I can do that at home if I like). Should be interesting to see how much cardio time I will squeeze in post-lifting. Might force me to see that I need extra time on the tread at home after work too. We shall see.

[vballcoach]

In and excited to follow your new journey:)

[Tweak]

So far so good!!! :hi5:

[T-Cake]

Hey all. I'm here, and thanks to those who are following me thus far. Going to do some catch-up tonight with the new log; need to post up Monday and today as well. Got back to lifting yesterday; so far minimal soreness, but I think today's training will leave a mark by tomorrow. We shall see. Just gettin' back into things, being consistent.

I will say this: Though I've still cut the sugar again... omg I am RAVENOUSLY hungry from the moment I get up until the moment I go to bed. It is AWFUL. The hunger/dizziness doesn't start to quit until dinnertime, so that's been rough the last couple days, but doing what I can right now.

[T-Cake]

Monday, May 10, 2010

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Nutrition
1. Ezekiel bread, turkey sausage, cheddar
2. Almonds; protein shake w/ water
3. Tuna fish; Greek yogurt
4. Mini Luna bar
5. Blue corn chips & salsa
6. Greek salad; half jerk chicken/veggie sub on WW bread
7. 6 bonless wings, celery (out watchin' the Magic game)

Macros
2593 calories
30% protein
31% carbs
39% fat

Training
Shoulders, Abs & Cardio.

5 min. treadmill warm-up

Shoulder Circuit, 3x through, no rest
1. Seated barbell shoulder press (20# bb x 15, 12, 10)
2. 1-arm DB lateral raise (7.5# db x 15, 12, 10 each side)
3. Low pulley rope front raise (20# x 15, 12, 10)
4. Reverse pec deck flye (30# x 15, 12, 10)

Abs Circuit, 3x through, no rest
1. Exercise ball crunch (15 x 3)
2. Lying leg lift (15 x 3)
3. DB oblique crunch (5# db x 15 each side x 3)

Cardio
40 minutes Precor elliptical (alt. 5 min. HIIT and 5 min. steady-state)

BodyBugg Info
Calories BURNED: 3122
Calories CONSUMED: 2594
Calorie DEFICIT: 528

[vballcoach]

Baby steps girly,just take it day by day. :)

[T-Cake]

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

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Nutrition
1. Protein shake w/ water, frozen berries
2. Ezekiel bread, turkey sausage, cheddar
3. Rice pilaf, chicken, salsa, veggies; orange
4. Almonds; Greek yogurt
5. Tortilla chips, salsa; black beans, rice, shrimp tacos w/ more salsa
6. SF lemon ice

Macros
2185 calories
26% protein
50% carbs
24% fat

Training
Chest, Biceps & Cardio.

5 min. treadmill warm-up

Chest Circuit, 3x through, no rest
1. Machine chest press (50# x 15, 12, 10)
2. Cable crossover (22.5# per arm x 15, 12, 10)
3. Exercise ball push-up (BW x 10 x 3 sets)

Biceps Circuit, 3x through, no rest
1. Straight bar cable curl (40# x 15, 12, 10)
2. Rope hammer cable curl (30# x 15, 12, 10)
3. Seated alternating DB curl (10# dbs x 15, 12, 10 each arm)

Cardio
30 minutes treadmill run (4:1 run:walk; Run = 5.7-6 @ 1% incline; walk = 3-3.5)

BodyBugg Info
Calories BURNED: 2832
Calories CONSUMED: 2186
Calorie DEFICIT: 646

[T-Cake]

Baby steps girly,just take it day by day. :)

Thanks, Rach. I am cleaning things up, believe me. Here and there I'll pick X food over Y food or X portion over Y portion. It's really a struggle, especially being so hungry and the day being sooooooo long for me.

On a great note: I have been waiting for a couple months to hear from a high school if they will interview me for a spot for next year. They FINALLY FINALLY contacted me this morning, and my interview is in the morning tomorrow before I go to work at my now-school. Sounds like a pretty 'done' deal from the email I got, but I'm excited to go check it all out, nonetheless.

[vballcoach]

Thanks, Rach. I am cleaning things up, believe me. Here and there I'll pick X food over Y food or X portion over Y portion. It's really a struggle, especially being so hungry and the day being sooooooo long for me.

On a great note: I have been waiting for a couple months to hear from a high school if they will interview me for a spot for next year. They FINALLY FINALLY contacted me this morning, and my interview is in the morning tomorrow before I go to work at my now-school. Sounds like a pretty 'done' deal from the email I got, but I'm excited to go check it all out, nonetheless.

That's exciting...good luck to you!!!:cheer:

[Tweak]

Good luck on your interview, babe!

Cakers, I just eat more complex carbs and veggies and it knocks out the starvation factor from when you first officially pull sugar so your system isn't so shocked. It only takes about a week-- you can do this! :nod: :hi5:

[P Bo]

Sending you a whole load of crazy Canadian positive vibes on your job interview!!!

:ily:

[T-Cake]

That's exciting...good luck to you!!!:cheer:
:nod: I'll update below. Thanks for the +++ :) How are you feeling?!?!


Good luck on your interview, babe!

Cakers, I just eat more complex carbs and veggies and it knocks out the starvation factor from when you first officially pull sugar so your system isn't so shocked. It only takes about a week-- you can do this! :nod: :hi5:
Good tip. I did have a GREAT lunch yesterday with some chicken/salsa/veggies/smidge of rice from home. OMG so tasty; I've been eating soup for so long (or tuna packets) for lunch that it was nice to feel like I ate a real meal.

Seriously -- ALWAYS hungry though. ALWAYS. It's nutty. Even right now I'm sitting here starving. Having plugged my food yet, so I have no idea where I stand. Went out the door w/o breakfast this morning b/c I didn't want to be late to my interview, so my "breakfast" was retarded snack food from what I could find on campus (read: carbs). Still starving -- and then I took my supps at lunch and within 2 hours I was nauseous; had to fight puking BAD. (No, I'm not pregnant -- but my tummy is soooo sensitive to no food and this whole 'cut back' phase I'm trying to put it through).


Sending you a whole load of crazy Canadian positive vibes on your job interview!!!

:ily:
OK -- SO -- (and thank you!) I went to my interview and it was short and sweet, really easy. Everyone at the high school was so nice, saw an empty classroom, and then the principal offered me the job for next year if I want it, so I took it! Ahhh! :hyper: Then we filled out the county transfer form, and then I had to go to my middle school job. On my way out of the HS, though, I ran into my friend who worked there, and we shrieked like little girls and probably scared the shit out of the whole front office, but it was fun! She showed me her classroom (which was great b/c FULL rooms look and feel WAY different and LESS scary than the empty one and empty hallway I got to see!) and then I finally finally left.

SO -- next year, I teach high school. I will either be teaching all integrated science (all 9th graders) or I will be teaching all biology (10th graders). Either way, my hours will be 7 - 2:30 (instead of 8:30 to 4, which it is now) and I can be Junior class sponsor, coach in the weight room and/or work with the weightlifting teams, sponsor student government and be on Prom committee -- I'm so excited! :D So much to do (and the more I do, the more money I can make here and there).

And another greatness -- the commute -- 15 minutes TOPS. No traffic. Totally quiet. NO TOLL ROADS, less gas (right now I pay about $40/week in tolls and about $35 in gas every 10 days AND for that lovely price I get to sit in traffic for 45 minutes to over an hour every morning... and it's only a '22 minute' drive... drivers here suck).

Really excited today. High schoolers again! I'm ready; I'll know at the end of this month which subject/grade I'll teach for sure. 19 days left for this school year and then I will begin moving all my crap from one school to another.

My CSCS test is this Saturday morning -- kind of breezing through the study materials here and there. I need to focus on that hard tonight, tomorrow, Friday so I can pass it. Whether I pass it or not, I do plan to sign up and take the NSCA CPT (personal training) test very soon too because it's mostly the same topics except easier. So even if I don't pass the CSCS one for some reason Saturday... while I'm waiting the 3 months for a re-take AGAIN... I can give the CPT a go. So either way I will have a cert this summer to work with.

All in all a decent day. No training today; usually I sleep in on Wednesdays but today I had to wake up early for the 7am interview -- but it was worth it. Back to the gym in the morning.

[Tweak]

CONGRATULATIONS ON THE NEW JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :cheer:

you're gonna knock em dead-- and boy they won't be sassing YOU! :poser:


THRILLED for you!

[T-Cake]

CONGRATULATIONS ON THE NEW JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :cheer:

you're gonna knock em dead-- and boy they won't be sassing YOU! :poser:


THRILLED for you!
Thanks! It's a big boost for me -- a big boost. My new school and classroom, btw, are chock full of the LATEST LATEST technology as well -- and cart of mini laptops per every 2 science teachers to share -- so HELLO TECHNOLOGY! :hilarious: So pumped for that. This has been a good year for me in my job: lots of praise, tons of recognition and non-monetary promotions where I'm being made a part of big things or asked to work with certain kids or committees -- it's just really shown me that even though I've only been teaching in this county 4 years (and total of 7) I really do know what I'm doing and apparently I'm really fuggin' good at it!!! :)

[vballcoach]

Congratulations!!! Those are some lucky kids:)

[P Bo]

You ARE fuggin' good at it! I am really really proud of you - this boost came at a good time I do believe.

Life will be so much simpler with better hours, less commute and fun things to get involved in at work.

Hard work DOES pay off :)

[Tweak]

Hols, you're a PHENOMENAL teacher and you glow with love and passion for what you do. You CARE about your kids and you aren't jaded (well, not every day :lol:) by the lack of parenting in today's society. You set the bar high for your students and they jump to reach it.

YOU DESERVE THIS, I am so unbelievably happy for you!

[T-Cake]

Hey everyone, and thanks for the nice comments. :) It has been a big week for me with some good and some bad; I'm really exhausted today.

I set up a new training week this week and made it through until yesterday morning. I was dead tired and slept in, skipping my cardio only day. This morning I was slated for my CSCS re-take exam so I've been reading at most chances I got at work/home/at night in the last 10 days or so, trying to brush up for that. Been trying to avoid stress eating; some days/meals were better than others, so once again I'm in need of a clean slate.

My exam: it's 2 parts, 90 questions and 120 questions. You get 4 hours total to get both done. I finished in about 2:30 hours instead.

Anyway, last time on the 90 question part, I failed it by 5 questions. This morning I failed it by 2 questions.

Last time on the 120 questions, I failed it by 4 questions. This morning I failed it by 1 question.

Needless to say, I'm trying not to freak out or go ballistic. I can't even try to tell you all how truly grueling and difficult the test is. It's not memorization, it's all application. Clearly I come very close, but the level of advanced knowledge + the application just sends my brain into a tail spin.

I can't re-take it for 90 days, so that puts me to August.

The NSCA has another certification, the CPT (Certified Personal Trainer). Unlike the CSCS, it doesn't require a college degree, but I also hope that it is a bit easier for me to pass. Just taking the quick practice quiz on their website was cake for me. So I came home, signed up to the CPT test (which I'll be able to schedule probably on Tuesday or something), and then if I take and pass that in the next few weeks, at least I will have a cert to work with until my August re-take for CSCS. I firmly believe in NSCA accreditations so it'll be good to have both (and was part of my plan anyway -- I just wanted the CSCS one first). I also took my 'fun' money for the week and spent it on practice tests: 1 for the CPT and 2 more (in addition to the 1 I already have/use) for CSCS, since it seems that the exam itself it so hard, the best way to get better is to take the damn test over and over again, though exhausting.

So that's my update. I'm logging what I eat today for the first time in a couple days (yes, slipped again), and I'm headed to the gym here in a few to do my final day of lifting for the week and the extra cardio as well. Good week for my teaching stuff... not so great for my aspiring athletic-trainer side... but I am putting Plan B into place now and hopefully I'll have a damn certificate with the NSCA soon. No shortcuts on that one -- I could do a quick online or 1-day "I'm a personal trainer" class... but I know I'm better than that, so I just have to work this all out and keeping trying.

[T-Cake]

Back again today. Yesterday I let my food demons really get to me and I ate way too much again last night. Logged it; ended up at 3100 for the day or something stupid like that... but I forced myself to log it on BBugg.

Food is my demon. Battling it again today.

Something that's been holding me back lately is this sickness I feel every day, typically 2 hours after I take my supps. I take a lot of morning supps, always after breakfast... but in the last 2 weeks, I must have added something back to my morning load that just isn't sitting well with me. One day last week I forgot my supps and took them at lunch instead... I had felt fine all morning and then within 2 hours of those lunch supps... wham, sick again.

Basically it's not just a supp/caffeine/energy rush -- it's a lightheadedness that sticks with me all through work and some moments I feel like I'm going to puke my brains out. It's bad and very uncomfortable.

This morning I wanted a new day. I had oats/berries, chicken, and an orange for breakfast and mid-morning. I went to the grocery store; within 90 minutes of taking my supps, I was at the store and ready to pass out. It was bad. I quickly bought OJ, sat down, chugged it... and waiting to feel stable. I managed to finish shopping, pay, and get home. Halfway through unpacking groceries I felt awful... super lightheaded, couldn't even lie down comfortably; just wanted to hurl.

So I did. :( I really really really really really hate throwing up. Hate it. I didn't make myself; it just happened, and therefore... all my good food I ate today was quickly... out.

Then I felt a lot better.

SO -- I was thinking the last 2 weeks that I was just SUPER hungry (legitimately) or dizzy from being hypo... and that'd cause me to cave on my diet almost daily. After today, I ate good carb breakfst and good carb snack... and wham, sick. So it's the supp load I am taking. Something I used to take at lunch time that I am now taking in the a.m. is NOT sitting well with me.

I'm going to spend this week with just Sesapure/Glucorell R and a couple vitamins (E, fish oil, and glucosamine MSM at night); let the body re-stabilize and hopefully that will stunt this "I'm going to puke -- I need to eat!" pattern I've fallen in to in the last 2 weeks.

Weight this morning was 166 since I finally slept in. I'm holding on to a lot of water and probably 1-2 lbs of legitimate fat gain right now from the last 2 weeks and overeating too often... but if I get my tummy and my head under control again, I think I will be okay.

[*Bunny*]

CAKER _ Congrats on the jobby job!!! HS!

Hot teacher alert!!!



Sorry to hear about your supp dilemma. I went through that which is why I stopped taking everything at one point.

I was just sick of pills, I get like that... BUT, my sensitivity is mainly from Green Tea. I just cannot handle it unless I have a very full stomach of Complex Carbs. It got worse than Trex on empty for me (which surprisingly I can do one on empty, and now I get sick in the stomach from CB).

Not sure if this is related to the batch of CB (it was a new bottle) or my body saying, time for a break.

Here's to you figuring it out and having a great week
:kiss:

:heart:'s to you!

[Tweak]

T-Cake, I'm sorry to hear about the CSCS exam. You just have so many balls to juggle when you're still in the school year, I wouldn't beat yourself up about it too much. The NSCA is a great place to start and frankly, the more certifications and information you have available, the better trainer you'll be. Mike is obsessed with continuing education and started out with his NSCA and has gotten lots of different certifications over the years, mostly which focus on physiology, mechanics, and rehabilitation. Everyone finds their niche and you'll find yours. Worst case scenario, you can just quickly take the ACE and build up your certifications from there. :nod:

Like Bunny, I can't do most AF supps on an empty stomach. In fact I think Cardio Breeze is the only one that doesn't make me queasy. TRex?? Forget it, I have to have food with that. Even glucorell and sesapure can make me "urpy".

Glad that you're making some progress and HOLY CRAP I"M GONNA SEE YOU IN A MONTH!!!!!!! :D :D :D AND YOU GET TO MEET MIKE! :D :D :D

[*Bunny*]

:cheer: :cheer: :cheer: :cheer:
:cheer: :cheer: :cheer:

BUNNY VIBES!!!

[T-Cake]

Hi everyone.

I know my log started and quickly fell apart but with good reason. I had a lot of stress and stress eating leading up to my CSCS exam last Saturday and then this past Monday we started our "Ulter's adventures in the ER/hospital" time. It's a long long long long story, but I took Wednesday P.M. through Friday off from work to be with him and take care of him. Glad I did because we ended up back at the ER yesterday. He's in the hospital now and we are waiting for what's next. He had his gallbladder removed Tuesday night and that should have been the end of this nightmare, but it isn't so.

Anyway.... in the last two weeks my weight jumped from 165 (after when I was sick) and today I'm 174. My face is puffy. I want to just break down and cry.

I worked out twice this week: Monday morning I did cardio and weight; Thursday I managed some half-hearted cardio because my knee now throbs like hell again from being so heavy once more.

I am devastated. Last May when I got sick myself I never did bounce back from the weight gain and I ended up back closer to 185 by summer's end.

I just ate a clean breakfast (egg white, ground turkey breast, oatmeal/berries). I have to take this one meal at a time and just sweat it out, 2 hours of cardio a day again until I get this all off of me. Weights will have to wait again. Also I skipped a period last month so I am holding on to all that water weight as well still that usually gets shed that way.

Just trying not to fall apart... sorry my log is so disappointing right now. I haven't had a great day from start to finish in a long long time, which is why I haven't posted my days up. Maybe I'll finally get my act together today since I feel so awful; final kick in the pants, I guess. I've put myself last for the last couple weeks, ate like crap, couldn't train, wasn't sleeping... and now I'm THIS CLOSE to not having clothes that fit.

Need to do something.

[*Bunny*]

:rose: :rose: :rose: :rose: :rose: :rose: :rose: :rose: :rose: :rose: :rose: :rose:

[P Bo]

T-Cake, the best way to get back to equilibrium is one meal, one workout and one day at a time. Step out of the big picture right now and just be here now. I speak from the heart and from experience.

:heart:

[Tweak]

+1 to what BM said... you can't focus on the overall picture or you'll feel deflated. I take it a day, a workout, a meal at a time and high five myself (no not like that, perverts!) at the end of the day. All of the sudden I've been perfect for 5 days, 10 days, 15 days in a row and it just gets easier. You just gotta get the train movin' in terms of a routine.

YOU DESERVE to be put first and you for sure have had some stress. You are way too hard on yourself, Holly, you can't fix everything and you can't always win. I think our culture teaches that hard work pays off but you know, sometimes it just isn't on our timeline in our minds. Sometimes you do everything right and still fall flat on your face. You just have to wipe the tears off, get pissed, and use that frustration to fuel whatever Plan B is for you (I'm right there with you, girl!!!). You've got it in you and you're almost done with school. I love you like crazy and I want to see you be completely happy inside and out.

Set a plan, set a goal, and go get it. You are not defeated, Holly!!!!

Nobody is disappointed in your log, nobody thinks you failed, and nobody is looking down on you for anything from your CSCS not going your way. Last summer when you got sick is not THIS summer. You can and will bounce back from this. You always do. Get up, get pissed, focus on the little victories, and go get it! :cheer:

:ily:

[T-Cake]

Bunz, BM, Tweak -- my besties -- I love all 3 of you. :heart: Your words mean a ton (as do Ulter's here at home).

I am happy to say that I have been super awesome the last 3 days (including today), with 2 of 3 days with cardio and 3 days of SOLID CLEAN EATING without going over 1700 cals/day. This is H U G E.

HUGE. For real.

So I am happy to have 3 good days to post up here soon. I meant to do cardio this morning, but when Ulter was in the hospital this last week, I had my cell under my pillow and woke up so many times throughout the night to texts, mail alerts, etc. that last night -- with him HOME -- I slept the same way. Just very jumpy, everything waking me up, etc. So I slept until 7 today, and planned to train after work. Pooped out, basically, and never got to it. BUT -- because my diet was in check all day -- I'm still going to end the day with a solid calorie deficit to be proud of.

That is huge. Bunz, you were right when we were texting -- diet is 90-95% of the success right now. Tweak, I did get and started the Xpel yesterday, cut most dairy (like MINIMAL amounts) since Saturday... and that was enough to get the calories down AND I started up on my veggies again, slowly throwing some in here and there. BM, I got my head back in the last 24 hours or so. I've been in an exhausted, cortisol-induced fog for the last week -- worried, scared, panicked, overeating. I got my shit together starting Saturday and it's getting a bit easier as I go.

I already dropped from 174 back down to 167 this morning. One day at a time... I ate the PeteM plan all last summer (just ate way too much on my 'free' meals) and I keep telling myself that if I followed that routine, I can easily follow a regimen once again.

Oh -- and Ulter gave me a talkin'-to last night about why I think I have failed when I'm "the best person out there to get this done". It was a harsh lecture... but I had to hear it. I quit on myself too easily and I really have to fight daily to stop doing so.

[Tweak]

Well if it makes you feel any better, the average person does just give up on themselves because fighting is just way too hard. lol So it's not like you're some kind of mutant freak that you get fed up, scared, and start searching the house for a white flag to mount on the flag pole.

You, however, are not a quitter. Ulter is right-- you are the best person to get it done. You work harder in the gym than anyone else i know. You're a frickin' animal, Hols, go get what you want.

The diet is more mental than anything-- you can do it.

You are a bright, happy, sweet girl Cakers... DONT FORGET!

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v675/AMHuot00/IMG_0384-1.jpg

:ily:

[ViRTuouS]

I LOVE that ^^ picture of you Cakers!! You're just so damn lovable, I just wanna throw my arms around you and give you a big 'o hug!

Great job on your last super awesome 3 days! I don't know you as well as some of the others here, but I know that some hurdles you fly over and some seem so big that they slow you down, but you just kick them over and plow through anyway. I think you're already on the other side and I look forward to seeing your log pick up pace over the next few weeks. Oh yeah, I'm also glad Ulter's doing better and is back home!! After years of pain, I finally broke down a few years ago and had my gallbladder removed. (kickin' myself for not doing it earlier though)


:cheer:go baby go:cheer:

[T-Cake]

Well if it makes you feel any better, the average person does just give up on themselves because fighting is just way too hard. lol So it's not like you're some kind of mutant freak that you get fed up, scared, and start searching the house for a white flag to mount on the flag pole.

You, however, are not a quitter. Ulter is right-- you are the best person to get it done. You work harder in the gym than anyone else i know. You're a frickin' animal, Hols, go get what you want.

The diet is more mental than anything-- you can do it.

You are a bright, happy, sweet girl Cakers... DONT FORGET!

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v675/AMHuot00/IMG_0384-1.jpg

:ily:
I love you a ton, too, and you are such a nut for posting that picture. Um -- whoa drunk -- remember? :) :lol: Fun times, fun times.


I LOVE that ^^ picture of you Cakers!! You're just so damn lovable, I just wanna throw my arms around you and give you a big 'o hug!

Great job on your last super awesome 3 days! I don't know you as well as some of the others here, but I know that some hurdles you fly over and some seem so big that they slow you down, but you just kick them over and plow through anyway. I think you're already on the other side and I look forward to seeing your log pick up pace over the next few weeks. Oh yeah, I'm also glad Ulter's doing better and is back home!! After years of pain, I finally broke down a few years ago and had my gallbladder removed. (kickin' myself for not doing it earlier though)


:cheer:go baby go:cheer:
Aww, all that lovin' is your new mommy instincts, I'm sure. ;) Thank you for the kind words; I'm super excited for your baby!!! I also am so so so so happy Ulter is better and home now. Each day he is feeling better, though still very tired. I just can't even explain how hard last week was for ME, let alone for him (he just suffered so much.....).

This week has been really tiring for me as well. Spent most of Sunday/Monday just getting my HEAD back on and focused on me, my work, etc. again. By Monday I started feelin' it again, which is good; I think I can attribute a great deal of that to having a successful training/eating day on Sunday. Had to get past that first GIGANTIC hurdle.

Work has been super busy, now with 9 days to go with students, and then the 2 days after that I will be moving all my stuff across town to my new school in preparation for next year. Lots of calories will be burned, so that is good!

Last night I had to make a super big conscious effort to NOT nibble on something out of the fridge post-dinner. It was a rough moment for me -- took out the food, had in hand, put it back, walked away. I thought about that earlier today about how that one small moment is such a big deal for me. And then making breakfast this morning, I have been trying to avoid my normal breakfast sandwich with turkey sausage, but I wanted one today -- so I cut it from 4 turkey patties down to 3... and had to FORCE myself to use LF cheese instead of full fat cheddar... and then FORCE myself to only use ONE slice of LF cheese instead of 2... I mean... H A R D. Little stuff is HARD! But I managed -- just had to keep reminding myself that a 500 calorie breakfast does not do me well by day's end when I am up and about from 6am until 11pm... long-ass day, can't spend all those cals so early.

[P Bo]

Last night I had to make a super big conscious effort to NOT nibble on something out of the fridge post-dinner. It was a rough moment for me -- took out the food, had in hand, put it back, walked away. I thought about that earlier today about how that one small moment is such a big deal for me. And then making breakfast this morning, I have been trying to avoid my normal breakfast sandwich with turkey sausage, but I wanted one today -- so I cut it from 4 turkey patties down to 3... and had to FORCE myself to use LF cheese instead of full fat cheddar... and then FORCE myself to only use ONE slice of LF cheese instead of 2... I mean... H A R D. Little stuff is HARD! But I managed -- just had to keep reminding myself that a 500 calorie breakfast does not do me well by day's end when I am up and about from 6am until 11pm... long-ass day, can't spend all those cals so early.

^^^^^^^^^^

This is all about being here now in the moment - making conscious little decisions that when added up over time = results. Now THAT'S what I'm talking about!!!!

Feel good Holly because YOU are back in control of YOU.

[T-Cake]

^^^^^^^^^^

This is all about being here now in the moment - making conscious little decisions that when added up over time = results. Now THAT'S what I'm talking about!!!!

Feel good Holly because YOU are back in control of YOU.
Good to know that's what I was doing. :) Had some moments of doing that today too, or wanting to eat something and just not log it in. Stopped myself, though, and got a grip on that.

I have a long weekend this weekend, so it looks like I will have P-LENTY of time for LOGGING and catching up on posts for this last week's progress where I dug myself out of the hole.

[T-Cake]

Saturday, May 22, 2010

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Nutrition
1. Egg whites, lean turkey, oatmeal, strawberries
2. Corn tortillas, lean turkey, salsa, FF sour cream; orange
3. Banana, ANPB
4. Protein shake; almonds
5. Green beans, lean turkey, salsa, FF sour cream; ANPB

Macros
1780 calories
39% protein
33% carbs
28% fat

Training

Cardio
30 minutes treadmill run + 5 min. cooldown walk

BodyBugg Info
Calories BURNED: 2551
Calories CONSUMED: 1780
Calorie DEFICIT: 771

[T-Cake]

Sunday, May 23, 2010

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Nutrition
1. Egg whites; SF applesauce, oatmeal
2. Protein shake, almonds, SF applesauce
3. Egg, egg whites; turkey bacon, Ezekiel bread, SF jam
4. Banana, ANPB
5. SF popsicle
6. Grilled fish, broiled shrimp/mussels/scallops, seafood stuffing; grapefruit

Macros
1632 calories
33% protein
44% carbs
23% fat

Training

Cardio
45 minutes treadmill run + 5 min. cooldown walk

BodyBugg Info
Calories BURNED: 2877
Calories CONSUMED: 1634
Calorie DEFICIT: 1243

[T-Cake]

Monday, May 24, 2010

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Nutrition
1. Oatmeal, mixed berries; turkey sausage
2. Protein shake
3. Chicken, sweet potato, salsa; salad, vinegrette
4. Apple
5. ANPB
6. Veggie pizza with chicken

Macros
1678 calories
29% protein
44% carbs
27% fat

Training

No workout. Slept in and had a crazy busy day at work, so I was WAYYYY active enough to make up for it.

BodyBugg Info
Calories BURNED: 2579
Calories CONSUMED: 1678
Calorie DEFICIT: 901

[T-Cake]

Tuesay, May 25, 2010

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Nutrition
1. Hard-boiled eggs, Ezekiel bread, SF jam
2. Protein shake
3. Chicken, sweet potato, salsa; salad, vinegrette
4. Apple
5. Veggie pizza slice
6. Chicken lite tacos; tortilla chips, hot sauce

Macros
2048 calories
28% protein
42% carbs
30% fat

Training

Cardio
50 minutes elliptical (alternate SS and HIIT) + 5 minute cooldown

BodyBugg Info
Calories BURNED: 3389
Calories CONSUMED: 2048
Calorie DEFICIT: 1341

[T-Cake]

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

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Nutrition
1. Ezekiel bread, LF provolone, turkey sausage
2. Protein shake
3. Chicken salad (LF, homemade); orange
4. Almonds
5. Veggie pizza slice
6. Guacamole, tortilla chips; white rice, ahi tuna steak, stir-fry veggies
7. Strawberries

Macros
2049 calories
29% protein
35% carbs
36% fat

Training

Cardio
30 minutes treadmill run + 5 minute cooldown

BodyBugg Info
Calories BURNED: 3198
Calories CONSUMED: 2048
Calorie DEFICIT: 1150

[T-Cake]

Thursday, May 27, 2010

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Nutrition
1. Egg, egg whites; Ezekiel bread, SF jam
2. Protein shake
3. Chicken, veggies, sweet potato, salsa; salad, vinegrette; SF applesauce
4. Almonds
5. ANPB
6. Chicken, mashed potatoes, broccoli; salad, light Ranch

Macros
1881 calories
31% protein
32% carbs
37% fat

Training

Slept in. No workout today. Busy classroom day, though.

BodyBugg Info
Calories BURNED: 2590
Calories CONSUMED: 1883
Calorie DEFICIT: 707

[T-Cake]

Friday, May 28, 2010

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Nutrition
1. Ezekiel bread, LF provolone, turkey sausage
2. Corn tortillas, chicken, LF pepper cheese, salsa; LF cottage cheese, SF applesauce
3. Almonds, craisins
4. Dry Cheerios
5. Veggie pizza slice
6. Chicken/mushroom/veggie sub on WW roll; Greek salad
7. Mini Clif bar; craisins

Macros
2447 calories
27% protein
43% carbs
30% fat

Training

Slept in. No workout today.

BodyBugg Info
Calories BURNED: 2606
Calories CONSUMED: 2447
Calorie DEFICIT: 159

Eek -- ate too much today for not working out. Didn't listen to my inner voice @ dinner that said to only order 1/2 the sandwich. Argh. Missed the moment; just acknowledging it so I don't do it again or am at least more conscious of it.

[T-Cake]

Saturday, May 29, 2010

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Nutrition
1. Egg whites; oatmeal, strawberries
2. Turkey sausage; pineapple
3. Ezekiel bread, ANPB, banana
4. Corn tortilla, chicken, cheese, salsa; orange
5. Cheat meal: Tortilla chips, guacamole; stuffed chicken tortillas (ate half), black beans; tamale cakes (2 small); caramel cheesecake

Macros
3722 calories
15% protein
46% carbs
39% fat

Training

Cardio & Stuff
30 minutes 'elevators' on Stepmill, L6-L10 (30 sec. intervals)
20 minutes stationary bike + 5# dbs for arm work simultaneously
2 rounds of 3-move circuit: vertical sled press, donkey kicks, 1-arm kettle/plate swings
15 minutes recumbant bike

BodyBugg Info
Calories BURNED: 2586
Calories CONSUMED: 3722
Calorie SURPLUS: 1036 :(

Big cheat meal. Big. Too big. Without dessert, i would have broke even. I had been real good about not ordering dessert lately but I did genuinely want it last night. I thought about just baking something at home -- but then I am faced with leftovers. In the 'old days', I used to eat on Saturdays like I did today: clean all day and then dinner was 'anything goes'. It never impacted me negatively then so long as my Sunday through Friday were squeaky clean and 1600 cals too. Just toying with some old thoughts, I guess.

[T-Cake]

I've decided to commit to something.

For the umpteenth month in a row, I've read a reader write-in to Oxygen magazine about this diet plan they ran twice in the last year called "Lose 10 Lbs (or More) in 21 Days". This time (as like every time) the reader didn't lose 10 lbs... she dropped 26. *sigh* Anyway -- I took it out again to look through it and what the foods were... and it changes week to week what you eat.

My brain likes the "21 days" thing.
My brain likes that there is fruit galore in this thing -- I've been craving fruit nonstop.
I like that Week 1 meals are different from Week 2 and 3.

And lastly -- it allows for 5-6 planned meals and 2 snacks I can pick and throw in when I need to. It is low calories (Week 1 lands around 1380 w/ snacks; Week 2 around 1340 and Week 3 around 1590).

When I followed WeightWatchers for the first 7 years of my dieting life... I lived on 1250 calories/day for a damn long time. I lost a lot of damn weight. I know I can and HAVE lived comfortably on 1200-1400/day before.

In the last 2 years my biggest problem is eating too much, period. So I train like a madwoman (which I get props for and enjoy) -- but it burns me out so easily.

This plan encourages training but to dial it back some, so when I have a day where I only can muster 30 minutes instead of an hour -- no worries.

Anyway... I am on Day 1 of 21 today. I decided to do this after breakfast so my breakfast was clean but not what the menu says, so the cals might be a little higher today but that is okay.

This will be interesting... 21 days... you gals do this for... 4.5 MONTHS? I can't pussy out on this; it will be a challenge to go out to eat and be social with my friends and order what is close to plan (veggies galore and a piece of fish) but I have to keep my goals in mind here. I need a kick in the ass. I have 2 weeks left of my school year so the first 2 weeks of the plan will be busy ones for me which will keep my brain occupied. The final trick will be the 3rd week because the last 3 days of the 21 days I will be in Miami to see TWEAK compete. I will cross that bridge when I get to and I hope to make some decent progress between now and then.

[T-Cake]

Sunday, May 30, 2010

Day 1 of 21-Day Plan

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Nutrition
1. Chicken breast, egg, egg whites; Ezekiel bread, SF jam
2. Apple
3. Chicken, brown rice, snow peas, grapefruit
4. Celery, ANPB
5. Tilapia, asparagus, zucchini, salad w/ LF vinegrette
6. Frozen mixed berries
7. ANPB


Macros
1618 calories
37% protein
43% carbs
20% fat

Training

Cardio & Stuff
20 minutes treadmill (10 minutes SS 4:1 run:walk; 10 minutes 90:30 HIIT sprints)
20 minutes stepmill (10 minutes 90:30 HIIT sprints; 10 minutes SS)
Circuit 1, 3x no rest: Seated v-grip row SS with DB pullover
Circuit 2, 3x no rest: 1-arm DB bench press SS with 1-arm DB row
25 minutes Spin bike (intervals)

BodyBugg Info
Calories BURNED: 2845
Calories CONSUMED: 1618
Calorie DEFICIT: 1227 --> Cancelled out Saturday's surplus and then created an extra 200 deficit. Game ON.

[T-Cake]

Monday, May 31, 2010

Day 2 of 21-Day Plan

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Nutrition
1. Oatmeal, walnuts; orange
2. Apple
3. Broccoli, chicken, brown rice; pineapple
4. Celery, ANPB
5. Salad w/ vinegrette; grilled halibut, grilled veggies + asparagus
6. Blackberries
7. ANPB


Macros
1789 calories
26% protein
42% carbs
32% fat

Training

Cardio
30 minutes Precor elliptical (5 minutes SS fast, 5 minutes uphill H11-20 a bit slower, repeat)
15 minutes HIIT on rowing machine (90:30 sprints)
20 minutes stepmill, SS L7

BodyBugg Info
Calories BURNED: 2948
Calories CONSUMED: 1788
Calorie DEFICIT: 1160

[vballcoach]

:cheer: Go Cakers Go:cheer:

[T-Cake]

:cheer: Go Cakers Go:cheer:
Thank you :kiss:

The calorie I'm logging end up being higher than what the menu say they will be... I can't quite figure out why. I am using the same portions and foods, just entering the weights spot on. :dunno: It's still super clean, though, and I'm still eating (in the last 2 days) about 5-600 calories less per day than I have in recent months. I'm hoping to see some big changes.

Slept in this morning because I am sorrrrrrrrrrrre. I might try to train later today for a bit when I'm more warmed up. I start teaching sex ed today @ work... so it will be a busy day there too. :lol:

[Tweak]

:cheer:

Good luck on your 21 day quest-- eating fish really isn't so bad! And at least Tilapia is CHEAP!

[T-Cake]

:cheer:

Good luck on your 21 day quest-- eating fish really isn't so bad! And at least Tilapia is CHEAP!
:rose: Thanks.

The plan says 6oz of "fish" -- and I purposefully bought tilapia because it was cheapest and already packaged as 6oz filets. :) I know salmon would cost me more cals, though I like it a lot more. And ahi tuna steaks... dear Lord, those are good... but just too pricey, and I don't want this to be too expensive to do.

[P Bo]

Ohhhh, I'm in and following along dollie!

[Tweak]

I am way too freaking cheap to do anything BUT tilapia. I don't like cod or catfish, halibut has way too much fat (as does salmon) and a lot of it is just too freaking expensive. I cover my fish in EVOO, lemon juice, and orange zest these days, or I use a spicy mustard (but not grey poupon) and it's delicious. lol

I'm a sick weirdo though so don't listen to me. :p

BANANA PHONE!!!!!!

[Nick]

good luck with your 21 day plan and what's a body bugg it sounds scary :(

[T-Cake]

Ohhhh, I'm in and following along dollie!
:cheer: You are an awesome friend and person; I love you. Thanks for your help today, btw. :rose:


I am way too freaking cheap to do anything BUT tilapia. I don't like cod or catfish, halibut has way too much fat (as does salmon) and a lot of it is just too freaking expensive. I cover my fish in EVOO, lemon juice, and orange zest these days, or I use a spicy mustard (but not grey poupon) and it's delicious. lol

I'm a sick weirdo though so don't listen to me. :p

BANANA PHONE!!!!!!
Halibut is high fat? Really? But it's a white fish... :dunno: I just ordered halibut the other day at Seasons 52 and it was the same to me as tilapia, only thicker. Strange.

And you're not a sick weirdo - that sounds really good. I cook my brown rice in chicken broth and season with italian seasoning. That seems to do well. I also like a little ketchup (organic, no HFCS), lots of mustard and some relish... on my broccoli. :lol: I know... maybe I'm the weird one.

The banana phone song is rampant at my school in the last couple months -- kids are singing it non-stop. They think it's new... hilarious. I tell them that song is older than them...


good luck with your 21 day plan and what's a body bugg it sounds scary :(
Thanks, Kab. :kiss: So far so good with the plan; 4 days down and all is well.

A BodyBugg is this: http://my.apexfitness.com/vip/bb_enrollment_info_public.php
I posted awhile back about it in great detail, in my Winter/Spring Log. Posted a picture of what the software looks like at the end of each day, etc. It's awesome; I love this thing.

[T-Cake]

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

Day 3 of 21-Day Plan

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Nutrition
1. Oatmeal, walnuts, banana
2. Apple
3. Broccoli, chicken, brown rice
4. Celery, ANPB
5. Salad w/ vinegrette; tilapia; asparagus, zucchini
6. Mixed berries
7. ANPB


Macros
1584 calories
28% protein
45% carbs
27% fat

Training

Off. Slept in.

BodyBugg Info
Calories BURNED: 2910
Calories CONSUMED: 1584
Calorie DEFICIT: 1326

[T-Cake]

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Day 4 of 21-Day Plan

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Nutrition
1. Oatmeal, walnuts, banana
2. Apple
3. Broccoli, chicken, brown rice
4. Celery, ANPB
5. Pineapple
6. Salad w/ light honey dijon; tilapia; asparagus, zucchini
7. ANPB; mixed berries


Macros
1765 calories
25% protein
51% carbs
24% fat

Training

Off. A smidge under the weather; needing the sleep lately.

BodyBugg Info
Calories BURNED: 2247
Calories CONSUMED: 1765
Calorie DEFICIT: 482

[vballcoach]

Just checkin in. How many days left?? We have six school days left and I cannot wait to be done...:)

[Tweak]

I should rephrase: Halibut is a lot more oily than tilapia does.

And btw, I LOVE MUSTARD ON COOKED BROCCOLI TOO! lol

[T-Cake]

Just checkin in. How many days left?? We have six school days left and I cannot wait to be done...:)
I think we are about the same. I have 90 minutes left of today... and then Friday, Monday - Wednesday.

So 90 minutes... and 4 school days left. :D

But Monday is the awards ceremony and party for our 8th graders... so it really doesn't count all that much. ;)


I should rephrase: Halibut is a lot more oily than tilapia does.

And btw, I LOVE MUSTARD ON COOKED BROCCOLI TOO! lol
Hmm, interesting. Yeah maybe.

I'm hungry thinking about broccoli and condiments now. :lol: Wish I could have my snack now but I have Honors kids taking a final exam in here at the moment; ugh. Poor them. Test is hard as hell.

[T-Cake]

Thursday, June 3, 2010

Day 5 of 21-Day Plan

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Nutrition
1. Grapefruit, protein shake
2. Apple
3. Broccoli, chicken, brown rice
4. Celery, ANPB
5. Dry cheerios
6. ANPB
7. Tilapia, asparagus, zucchini; pineapple; SF italian ice cup


Macros
1691 calories
29% protein
50% carbs
21% fat

Training

Off again. In a slump today, thus changed out some of my foods too. Kept my intake under control which was really... really... really... hard to do.

BodyBugg Info
Calories BURNED: 2708
Calories CONSUMED: 1691
Calorie DEFICIT: 1017

[T-Cake]

Friday, June 4, 2010

Day 6 of 21-Day Plan

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Nutrition
1. Oatmeal, walnuts, banana
2. Low-cal turkey wrap sandwich; fruit cup with yogurt dip
3. Apple
4. Big salad w/ LF ranch; grilled chicken, mashed potatoes, broccoli
5. SF italian ice cup
6. ANPB
7. Mini Clif bar

Ended up in grazing mode tonight; #6 was ok but not 7 but I was genuinely hungry. :dunno: However now that I see my numbers WITH #7... it's annoying because without it I would have landed in the 1700s and not 1800s. 1700s is my high end, I know, because I weigh in the 160s right now, so to go up to 18 wasn't smart. I need to chug more water at night.
Had mini Ulter with me at work so I ordered in Jason's Deli and got a low-cal meal comparable to the cals in my normal lunch this week. Felt awesome to eat something so yummy and stay within my parameters. Same goes for dinner - had a big salad at Ruby Tuesday's and ordered an entree from healthy part of the menu. So delicious and again... within my calories. I am forcing myself to have structure in how I eat.

Macros
1864 calories
21% protein
50% carbs
29% fat

Training

Off again. There is actually physical ailment that kept me from working out the last 2 days. That's all I will say. But again, work was busy so that helped me keep up the activity.

BodyBugg Info
Calories BURNED: 2646
Calories CONSUMED: 1865
Calorie DEFICIT: 781

[T-Cake]

Week's summary:

* Felt really good to have some control with food again. Not being able to workout was hard on me emotionally and I break down very easily when I don't... so I am going to try today and see how I do.

* Though I still want ice cream... I am now again able to avoid stupid sugar foods like candy at work or the urge to bake a whole batch of cookies and eat them all in one sitting. So the sugar cravings have really died this week.

* I have learned this week that when it is meal time and I'm cooking my lunch for the next day or dinner for NOW... it may not be what I want to be eating... but once I do sit down and eat it's actually pretty good and I am happy... and even FULL when done eating.

* I am learning that fruit is not evil and it actually tastes even better when my body isn't comparing it to junk sugar.

* I am learning that I can and have been (this week) comfortably living again while eating closer to 1600 cals/day than 2000+. This is a big one. It's a big re-visit to a few years ago where 1600 calories was an INSANE amount of food to me.

* Weight loss this week: I binge ate last Saturday and started Sunday. Saturday morning last week I was 168. This morning I'm down to 165. So it's a solid loss for a week.

* Challenges this week: 3 days left @ work with students and then 2 days w/o. There is an after-school party on Wednesday and then a BBQ luncheon on Thursday (and their version of "BBQ" usually means I can't eat any of it b/c it's all pork and beef). Being around food is hard, but these people are so used to me bringing my own meals to these gatherings, they won't blink twice. Friday through Sunday we'll be out of the house so I will have to make and take my food for those 3 days. That... might be a challenge for me... but I know that if I don't, my choices for food are not what *I* like (like I don't like THEIR oatmeal... I like MINE...).

[P Bo]

Good morning Lovie - I know this was a rough week for you but all things considered, YOU still are down 3 lbs. How victorious is that????

Keep in mind, and this is something I am still learning to fully grasp, but eating clean isn't about being perfect, it's about being consistent. If that's one thing I've learned from Pete, it's to not bash myself for slipping and having pizza, but to pick up and just keep truckin' towards the next meal. If your cals are a little high one day, get 'em in order the next. As one of your daily quotes said: "turn the page".

Bring food to the BBQ if you have to. Last night, I went out with friends (I know, the social recluse popped her head out for a showing in public. Weird. ) and I knew I'd have to eat....so, while they were eating nachos, I was reaching into my purse for my chicken, walnuts and protein powder. I'm cutting weight for my meet next weekend and eating according to my plan is non-negotiable right now. Do what you need to do, not what others expect of you. If you get funny looks for bringing your own food, know what I say? Fuck 'em. :)

[ViRTuouS]

hey lady~

down 3 lbs and off training...that's pretty good in my book.

hope you can get back at it soon!

[T-Cake]

Good morning Lovie - I know this was a rough week for you but all things considered, YOU still are down 3 lbs. How victorious is that????

Keep in mind, and this is something I am still learning to fully grasp, but eating clean isn't about being perfect, it's about being consistent. If that's one thing I've learned from Pete, it's to not bash myself for slipping and having pizza, but to pick up and just keep truckin' towards the next meal. If your cals are a little high one day, get 'em in order the next. As one of your daily quotes said: "turn the page".

Bring food to the BBQ if you have to. Last night, I went out with friends (I know, the social recluse popped her head out for a showing in public. Weird. ) and I knew I'd have to eat....so, while they were eating nachos, I was reaching into my purse for my chicken, walnuts and protein powder. I'm cutting weight for my meet next weekend and eating according to my plan is non-negotiable right now. Do what you need to do, not what others expect of you. If you get funny looks for bringing your own food, know what I say? Fuck 'em. :)
I think about you ALLLLLLL the time when I am trying to watch how much I eat more closely. I envy that you have a tangible goal and "have" to make weight for something... and then I wonder why I envy it and need that. :lol: Good girl for controlling yourself; you and I are twins that way and I know how hard it is for you -- but so many positive good things are in your life right now, it's probably an even larger motivator for you than usual. :kiss:

And the people at work won't mind my packed lunch. I'd rather go prepared with my own food instead of guess what "BBQ" is going to be. It's never been chicken -- always pork, beef, and fried fish... and the sides have bacon in them... I just don't care to eat any of that. I'll bring my own fancy lunch that I CAN eat.


hey lady~

down 3 lbs and off training...that's pretty good in my book.

hope you can get back at it soon!
Hey sister. I managed to get back in the gym like a madwoman yesterday; feelin' it today! :lol: Still a bit limited on what my cardio can be for right now (and my knee is real tweaky so that limits me even further) but I will make due.

I gotta log yesterday now.

[T-Cake]

Saturday, June 5, 2010

Day 7 of 21-Day Plan

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Nutrition
1. Oatmeal, walnuts, dried cranberries, coconut
2. Apple
3. Corn tortilla, chicken, salsa, shredded cheese (only 8g); broccoli
4. Apple
5. Ahi tartare; grilled chicken tostada salad (black beans, greens, vinegrette, tostada shell)
6. Strawberries, vanilla ice cream, 3/4 shortcake biscuit

Today I took some meals and modified them how I wanted. Clearly this is a 2500-cap cheat 'day' with dinner being a feature but I kept my day meals as close to the plan as I could. For Sunday the meals change, and some of them are the same but some of the changes I don't care for, namely that I'm to be eating ANPB twice a day AND have permission to have more as a snack. Just scares me a bit, so I am going to keep some of my meals the same and others I am going to swap foods here and there (like instead of celery/ANPB twice a day... keep one of those as as still "an apple". Just in mix and match mode now. I think I'm actually thinking ahead of the 21-day mark, really. It's nice to have a plan to go by, though.

Macros
2487 calories
26% protein
45% carbs
29% fat

Training

5 min. treadmill walk/run warm-up

Circuit Training
Back Circuit, 3x through, 30 sec. rest between
1. Wide-grip lat pulldown
2. 1-arm bent-over DB row
3. Underhand lat pulldown

Bicep Superset, 3x through, 30 sec. rest between
1. Machine bicep curl
2. DB concentration curl

Tricep Superset, 3x through, 30 sec. rest between
1. Cable tricep extension, w/ rope attachment
2. 1-arm cable pushdown

[B]10K Cardio
1. 5k (3.15 miles) on Precor elliptical (alternating SS on same level with SS uphill faster climb)
2. 5k (3.15 miles) on treadmill (combination of walking, jogging)

Time: 75 minutes total for cardio

BodyBugg Info
Calories BURNED: 2867
Calories CONSUMED: 2486
Calorie DEFICIT: 381

[Tweak]

You're doing great!

There's nothing wrong with bringing your own food to bbqs and parties, btw. I bring my own food everywhere. Work, family events, friend events-- I'm not gonna miss out on life and being around the people I wanna be around, nor am I going to sabotage my fitness goals by missing a meal or "fudging it" and eating a bunch of pretend healthy food.

And yes, fruit is awesome. Fruit is my favorite pre-workout thing in the world and I love fresh berries with oatmeal or in egg white/oatmeal pancakes in the morning. :dinner: Watermelon is in season soon too, so I will be digging into that post-show from time to time.

You're making baby steps and gradually getting a grip on separating out the panic/FEAR of letting go of certain food sources and restrictions. Keep doing it! Keep pushing yourself! You're doing fab!

[vballcoach]

Looking good in. Keep working hard and keep the eye on the prize!! I understand the temptations w/ the BBQ and such, I tend to bring my own food as well:)

[Nick]

Well there is "something wrong" with it, according to THEM. But THEY are out of shape, uninspired and mostly a bit jealous :)

It always feels good when you make the right decisions. No one ever says oh man I regret bringing along my grilled chicken and not eating 5 of those salmonella covered cheeseburgers and cold french fries!!!!

Keep it up Cakers, 1/3 the way through this 21 day run!!

[*Bunny*]

:rose: :rose: :rose:
:heart::heart::heart:
:cheer::cheer::cheer:

:love:

[T-Cake]

Hey all.

Thanks for the words of encouragement.

Was hangin' strong there for awhile and then just... stopped. Again.

Something I have learned about myself over the years in my profession is that I can really only focus on one big thing at a time. This week my focus has been on packing, moving, wrapping things up at work, saying goodbye to my school of the last 4 years, not to mention the kiddos I just sent off to high school. Wowie wow. Powerful. I am very very very loved. I make a huge impact on people @ work and my kids @ work; it's been... nuts.

So my diet is back to 'normal'; I finally got up earlier today and did exercise; I did buy my own lunch and skipped out on the BBQ they offered (my lowfat Subway sub was wayyyyy better than their lunch anyway! I think they were jealous). Just re-grouping again. Sleep has helped to keep the bloat down. It's not the worst I've ever eaten, that's for sure; and it's not as bad as it was a few weeks ago... but I'm shifting gears right now and finishing up a big life step of changing my workplace... so my brain is riddled more with that than anything.

Just thinking about a lot. I do give up on myself. A lot.
Last night, when talking to my husband -- I know he's disappointed I didn't finish the 21 days. He loves me unconditionally; he's the greatest man ever.
He just hates to see me let down myself and doesn't get why I continually do it.

I'm still trying to figure that out. I seem to be incapable of putting my #1 #1 #1 #1 #1 no matter what changes, who's hungry, who needs me, etc. I inevitably shove myself and my wishes/dreams aside... and I'm the one that does it. No one forces me to give up on myself. It's just my excuse. Not sure why I do it...

[T-Cake]

I've made a decision to avoid sugar and alcohol at all costs.

I am addicted to sugar; easily. I cannot have even just a little without it sending me into a tizzy of self-hatred and destruction.
I've noticed lately that when I have a drink as well -- even a glass of wine -- I end up with a similar feeling, extremely emotional, etc.

Both substances make me feel like hell. Sugar makes me feel like hell and look like hell as well.

I need to clean up my life, and I'm starting there. At some point I won't care that I'm not eating sugar. I'm already two days into it; I know from past attempts that I do just fine with it. I make due just fine with sugar-free treats (including baking my own) and replacing my cravings with fruit. I know I have it in me to kick it for good, so I'm deciding that now is the time.

There is no occasion "special" enough to trash my emotions, my head, and my body for something sweet. I can easily fulfill those cravings with clean foods; I'm smart enough to make those treats and bake them up so it does something good for my physique, not destroy it. If that means I start baking and taking my own desserts to restaurants or a wedding... so be it. I'm known as T-"Cake" for a reason -- I love the stuff -- but it doesn't love me and never has. I know that if I start by kicking my worst habit cold turkey, my life in eating clean (and everything that I want to come true for myself) will come so much easier.

That's all.

[P Bo]

Care to fill us in what else you've been doing other than moving work places? Any running or evening strolls with your lovely husband? Workouts? Making summer plans? You and I both know that the approach to our health has to be holistic.

As for the sugar, I'm bang on like you. I love the stuff but it does not love me back. When I cut it out of my diet I do just fine. Add it back in and I look and feel like hell. Sooner or later, the realization will kick in that it just isn't worth it. I can do it with alcohol - I don't drink because I don't like how I feel.

[T-Cake]

Care to fill us in what else you've been doing other than moving work places? Any running or evening strolls with your lovely husband? Workouts? Making summer plans? You and I both know that the approach to our health has to be holistic.

As for the sugar, I'm bang on like you. I love the stuff but it does not love me back. When I cut it out of my diet I do just fine. Add it back in and I look and feel like hell. Sooner or later, the realization will kick in that it just isn't worth it. I can do it with alcohol - I don't drink because I don't like how I feel.
Hmm, well I don't know that I have a big, interesting bunch of stuff to report.

The weekend after school let out, Ulter and I hung out with Scarlett, her mom and Scar's bf. That was a fun time, but away from home, so didn't pay attention to diet as much as I should have, nor did I train like I could/should have. That weekend is when my meltdown really started.

Come last Monday to Wednesday, I was in class all day for a teacher class - so it was a lot of sitting. Monday I didn't workout and I continued to overeat. Tuesday/Wednesday I did workout -- the meltdowns continued over how much I was eating, how big I'm getting... but the scale wasn't budging too badly so I just dealt.

Come Thursday and up until today, we've been in Miami to see Tweak in the FAP Universe (which was awesome to see her and meet her bf finally). Thursday we got to our hotel room, I looked in the mirror and lost it. Cried myself to sleep that night and Friday; held back tears several times this weekend, seeing fit people, being sporadically motivated -- and knowing I can't do it.

Friday I committed to stop trashing myself. Friday and Saturday (non-travel days) I trained. I started my own personal ban of sugar on Friday. Now at the end of day 3 detoxing from my last big, sugary treat/meal Thursday night... I am finally getting my head together.

So -- where have I been?
Mentally, I've been weak. Very. It's disappointing.

Had some revelations:
1. I base my self-worth on my weight. When I am 165# or higher -- my mother's voice creeps into my head, telling me I'm failing, I effed up, etc. This is the truth.

2. I cannot compete. I can't. I want to -- but I can't. I would need 2, maybe 3 more skin surgeries to even have a shot in hell. The financial side of it is unappealing to me -- but I am craving some avenue to compete in still. PL isn't my thing. Physique contests are not an option for me, so I hear.... Strongwoman is not available in my area for training. CrossFit is here but expensive to join and far to drive. I am extremely competitive -- but have no avenue to go for this.

3. Ultimately, I have to lose the weight for me. Hearing woman after woman announced all weekend long as my height and 30-40 pounds LESS than me... well, it was devastating. I'm not even CLOSE to being fit or healthy. I have to focus on getting to HEALTHY and a NORMAL WEIGHT. Right now, eye is on 150. I have tons of muscle. I still have cuts in my arms/shoulders and a visible horseshoe tricep... and I'm 170#+ That's insane. That's a big girl. It's great that I will have lots of fun things to see -- but I have to get lean for me because it's what I dream of for myself.

4. And finally -- I reward myself with food. I clean my plate. When I get down closer to 160 -- I start eating again. Call it false confidence... self sabotage? I don't know... but I eat more -- and then I go back up, and it starts all over again. I eat and eat -- the body doesn't change for a few days -- then WHAM -- big. Bloated. Clothes don't fit. I'm sobbing. I tear up all the time at nothing. I get weak again.

So here I am... in the middle. One meal at a time and just hoping to keep it clean food that I like, train hard, SLEEP, avoid my vices... and try to find some stability.

I'm going to see an orthopaedic surgeon on Tuesday about my left knee; hoping for imaging after 3 years of suffering.
I'm making an appt to go see an endocrinologist about my thyroid levels, my CORTISOL levels, my sex hormones, etc. I have a feeling I am off somewhere, and after having a talk with Scarlett's mother, she's encouraged me to go get a full panel done as well.

Blah blah blah....

[Tweak]

Cakers, you're a stunningly beautiful woman and strong as hell. Yes, you do have some issues but it's good you're aware of it-- have you thought about getting some counseling to give you the tools to overcome these walls? I think it would help you out a lot!

You will find your place and your way of competing-- you are an athlete and you're fiercely competitive. Whether you get on stage or not is irrelvant-- you will find your way. Can you get certified in Crossfit and start a chapter in your area?

You are not a weak person. You just have to learn to tell your mom's nagging voice to STFU. You're a fighter, not a quitter, and that's how you've always been. You will overcome this and shine through with a big smile on your face. DONT get down on yourself and DONT compare yourself to the women you saw over the weekend. Dude, I was depleted and *I* felt inadequate there! You just can't do that to yourself or you'll make yourself nuts. Everyone has body issues, no matter how big or small they are.

You will break 160 and you'll stay there. I know you will! I think you should consider talking to someone about figuring out how to get your mom's voice out of your head and heart. I had to talk to someone about some stuff from my past that was holding me back and damaging me and I NEVER would have gotten past it trying to "figure it out on my own." I ended up going in circles. Sometimes I thought I was going down a different path but it was just a bigger, broader circle. I think you'd benefit from it!

:ily:

So glad you were there and that we could see you, though I knew you were having a hard time. You're amazing, girly, and you've got guts. You'll get through this stuff and find your way in the world of athletics-- I know it!

[P Bo]

Cakers, you're a stunningly beautiful woman and strong as hell. Yes, you do have some issues but it's good you're aware of it-- have you thought about getting some counseling to give you the tools to overcome these walls? I think it would help you out a lot!

You will find your place and your way of competing-- you are an athlete and you're fiercely competitive. Whether you get on stage or not is irrelvant-- you will find your way. Can you get certified in Crossfit and start a chapter in your area?

You are not a weak person. You just have to learn to tell your mom's nagging voice to STFU. You're a fighter, not a quitter, and that's how you've always been. You will overcome this and shine through with a big smile on your face. DONT get down on yourself and DONT compare yourself to the women you saw over the weekend. Dude, I was depleted and *I* felt inadequate there! You just can't do that to yourself or you'll make yourself nuts. Everyone has body issues, no matter how big or small they are.

You will break 160 and you'll stay there. I know you will! I think you should consider talking to someone about figuring out how to get your mom's voice out of your head and heart. I had to talk to someone about some stuff from my past that was holding me back and damaging me and I NEVER would have gotten past it trying to "figure it out on my own." I ended up going in circles. Sometimes I thought I was going down a different path but it was just a bigger, broader circle. I think you'd benefit from it!



Yeah, what she said. :)

Like Tweak, I've had to talk to someone too to understand some of my issues.

Until you accept yourself as you are and for who you are, it won't matter what the scale says. It could read 150, 135 or 105 lbs but it won't ever be enough because you don't believe you are enough. Cakers, trust me on this one - considering I've been anorexic and bulimic. Seeking validation via the number on a scale does not work. Validate yourself that you are worthy of love, goodness and success because of who you are: an amazing friend, teacher, wife etc etc and not because you can force your body to do something it was never meant to do.

I love you girlie. Start loving yourself like you love others and the shift will start to happen.

[Ivanko]

I honestly think to quit the sugar you need to focus on lots of healthy fats and not worry about your cals so much just eat as much protein and vegtables and healthy fats as you can - trust me the sugar addiction will go - it will take time but it will go and I bet you will drop the weight really fast. Do not try to do too much - you keep beasting yourself :-) just concentrate on low carb - look at Chefwides recommendations, I read his preaching years ago and went his way this last year I halved my bodyfat while gaining muscle and I dont count calories, I retain bodyfat easily now I have found a way to keep it in check. Honestly I used to be in the same cycle as you, try and eat healthy, weights, cardio 5 days a week, could not get my bodyfat below 17/18% soon as I cut my carbs (which are mainly sugar) and stopped cardio - Bingo. Its toughto start, no bread, not even ezkiel, no rice, potato etc etc but it works. My g/f follows the same diet, my brother now - its a way of life. Grass fed beef mince, steaks, lots of fish, chicken, pork, vegetables, salad but NO grains. I used a Poliquin guy originally to help me but if you look on the net there are many who advocate this way of life, its great for health and longetivity and fitness. My friend is a professional rugby player he plas for the biggest club in the uk and his diet as instructed by the club is very very low in carbs with the bulk coming from fruit and veg, this team has the lowest bodyfat levels i the league.

[Ulter]

Sometimes I don't think this stuff is setting in, and then I read this log and there it is. :)

[takniteasy]

Just reading your frustration makes me tear up! girl, I've so much admiration for you and can't even describe how much you inspire me to keep on going despite the setbacks. Your story is what keeps many women (and men) motivated to continue to change their lifestyles.

Please consider what Tweak suggested. sometimes we need someone who can see the things we can't. And then give us the tools to help us heal.

keep searching for the competitive avenue. You will find it. And it will provide you with great satisfaction.

Don't ever give up on you or your dreams. You are worth more than that.

[Lady29]

Congrats on the job and going back to diet as well :cheer:

[Tweak]

Allo?? :)

[T-Cake]

Hey, I'm here.

Here's the latest:

1. Dug myself out of hole. Check.

2. Have really committed to eating clean, and still sticking to no sugar and no alcohol since last Friday, so it's been a week now. I am pleased with my choice. I am not craving any of that stuff at all now, which is wonderful. I made a sugar-free date/oat bar batch Thursday night and had 1 out of the 16 in the pan. It was delicious, I was happy, I got to bake -- I was able to stop. It ruled. I am allowing myself 1/day if I want one, and the control I am exhibiting is worth everything to me.

3. Moodiness has subsided for the most part, but I am reallllllly low on supps right now due to an upcoming endocrinologist appt and blood draw, so I am super tired and not sleeping as well as I like. Last night I got moody because I couldn't sleep -- again -- so I took a tylenol PM and that did me in, thank God.

4. My weight -- sigh. Creeped down for a few days and now it is sitting. I am not crying over this this morning, but I'm a smidge annoyed. HOWEVER - I went back to weight training this week, so I am sore and feel heavy in my muscles. I APPEAR LEANER for sure -- back fat is coming down, I can see my ab lines again. I'm pulling a 1200 calories/day DEFICIT - I feel like the gym phenom again when I'm in there, blowin' everyone's mind. All of those things trump what I'm seeing on the scale and I have to know and trust that that will reflect sooner than later. I know I am doing all the right things.

5. Best part: Though I mention #4, I have zero desire to binge eat and destroy myself right now. I accredit this to my new life without sugar/alochol/toxins. It is poison to me. Some folks can live with it a little -- I am not one of them. I prefer control, and this helps me do it.

Off for workout #1 today. More later.

[Hidngod]

:rose:
Sorry I'm late. I just saw this.
I'll come back later to read more, but congratulations on your new job! :woot:
I know you're going to be amazing.

[Tweak]

Glad to hear your head is back in the game, Cakers-- not always an easy task. I'm proud of you for getting back in the saddle. It's really hard to pull yourself out of that funk sometimes... our minds are our worst enemies sometimes. I get the same way. It's very hard on M, I'm sure it is for Ulter too.

:cheer:

SO PROUD OF YOU!!!

[T-Cake]

Glad to hear your head is back in the game, Cakers-- not always an easy task. I'm proud of you for getting back in the saddle. It's really hard to pull yourself out of that funk sometimes... our minds are our worst enemies sometimes. I get the same way. It's very hard on M, I'm sure it is for Ulter too.

:cheer:

SO PROUD OF YOU!!!
Thanks for the support and the cheers.
Just trying to keep my head on straight these days and focused on what's important: my health and well-being.
One day at a time.

[Miss24k]

Pineapple!!! I wish you weren't so hard on yourself. You are a beautiful strong woman, and you can accomplish your goals! I believe in you and am proud of you for all that you have already accomplished. Luv ya girl xoxo

[Tweak]

*taps on shoulder*

Excuse me, have you seen my T-Cake?

[~peaches~]

Hey stranger! Just stopping by after a extended break from the boards due to some endocrine issues ( that resulted in pituitary surgery). I hope your not having endocrine problems, they are the pits.

I see you haven't posted in a while but know your inspiration has kept a lot of us including myself in check. Don't be to hard on yourself :roses:

[Florencia]

Where are you? C'mom let's do it together!