archive_Bjaarki
07-24-2003, 08:30 AM
Brothers:
Hmmmm ... Well ... Much to my surprise, it looks like the good gnomes around here saw fit to resurrect that old thread, "Pics on my 50th," and the nearly 2-year-old training photos at the top of it.
http://anabolicfitness.infopop.net/2/OpenTopic?a=tpc&s=702093973&f=312093973&m=6253066323
Wasn’t my idea. Now people have been posting to it like it’s new – Fukkenshredded wrote me a beautiful note of well-wishes (I love that guy!), and plenty of other brothers, too, guys have been calling me up and wishing me a happy birthday. But look ... that thread is OLD, bros. So, since it got bumped it would be silly to not post an update, with pics. At the top of the other thread I had just turned 50. Today, I am about to turn 52. So, nearly two years have gone by since I shot those pics and scandalized my grad student, Pilar, by having her download them onto her office computer. She’s over the trauma, by the way. She’s seen much worse than Speedos from me, and suspects worse still, now.
During the time between the posting of my 50th birthday thread and the posting of this one, I was always here, always posting, always visible. So you all know pretty much exactly what I was up to the whole time. For about half of the time I continued to train hard but was using no gear at all. Nothing. Bupkes. I mean nothing, not even ephedrine, not even creatine. You all know about that. Some of you kid me about it and refer to that time as "Bjaarki’s Anti-Gear Campaign," or "When Bjaarki Saw the Lord" ... heh-heh. But it was never that. I was never anti-gear. I was just in what turned out to be a very useful period of sober reflection, one from which I emerged a year ago with the plan to use anabolics in a 4-on/2-off pattern, never stacking more than 2 anabolics, never going above 1g/wk combined anabolics, never using orals, and never using cutting drugs. If I violated any of those 5 rules, I told myself, I would put down anabolics altogether, just like I’d already done, until I could straighten my head out.
What an excellent, intelligent plan! But ... so much for excellent, intelligent plans. Why should I lie? That whole thing went overboard pretty quickly. The 4-on/2-off thing morphed into an 8-on/4-off thing and then into a pretty steady always-on/never-off kind of thing until it turned out I’ve been pretty much "on" all the time for the past year. Yeah, I seem, almost by default, to have come to Ulter’s position (I think Mr. N. is there, too) that gear for older guys is just HRT with a turbocharger. That’s right. Keep it light but keep it goin’! That’s not true for younger guys, they should take plenty of "off" time to give their endocrine systems a chance to re-regulate, but us older guys, our endocrine systems are bailing out, anyway, and if I have anything to say about it, I’ll just stay on 'til doomsday. I’ve been pretty good about the rule of using just simple stacks – not always, I will run EQ along with my usual program for a a couple of months as often as I can source good EQ – and fair-to-middlin’ on dose limits. I pretty much limit things to 500-1000mg of test, and 400-700mg/wk of tren, sometimes test alone or test and EQ, usually about 1g/wk combined, though often quite a bit over that. Yeah. Then I said I wouldn’t use orals, but I’ve been using dbol the last few weeks and getting excellent results ... and I ran for awhile post-workout slin at 10IU and still do that sometimes. Yeah, then there’s cutting drugs. I said I wouldn’t use them. But I really really dug a cycle of T3, Thermorexin and some clen and a little Lasix that I finished a month ago, and will do it again as soon as I can. So I broke pretty much all of my self-imposed rules, but what can I do about that? I said I would put down steroids altogether until I could straighten my head out if any of this happened, then all of it did happen, and now I'll be damned if I'll give up gear. Well ... I promised you honesty, not integrity ...
As some of you know, at the beginning of the year I started training regularly with IronGod and FitnessChick. IG has you pay a lot of attention to basics and to nutrition – "Miss a workout, but don’t miss a meal!" He is an excellent observer and diagnostician who identifies your weak points, and I would in fact say that my physique has changed more since starting to train with IronGod than it did in the prior several years. With his help, I actually got a shape – no volume, but a shape – to my calves. IG really is the evil genius of weight lifting, no doubt about it, everyone who has trained with him will tell you that.
As for some update pics: The full-body shot (there are those Speedos again, Pilar!) was taken about a month ago. I weighed about 199 then, and had just finished the T3 with test and tren. The lighting sucks and you can’t see any detail, but it’s the only shot I have head to toe, and it shows you my general size at my height of 6'0".
http://www.anabolicfitness.net/images/bj/fdbc1.jpg
In the last month I folded in some very good Russian dbol into my usual test/tren program, and just took these other pics, where my weight is back up hovering just south of 210. That's close to 15 lbs heavier than I was 2 years ago. I’ve decided I love dbol. Heh heh. I’ve been threatening lately to use 15mg of dbol and 75 of tren everyday for the rest of my life. Not really ... but there would be worse ways to go.
http://www.anabolicfitness.net/images/bj/fsb.jpg
Bodyfat, I think, has edged up a point or two, but most of the gains over the last two years have been in the form of extra size in my upper body, a little in my legs, as these pics clearly show. My arms are 17" cold, sometimes a little more, even after dieting. Waist is 33", an inch more than I like. My chest, back and especially my delts have really popped out the last few months. My legs (I know!) are pathetic, but I’m not hiding them anymore, and IronGod is kicking my ass about them regularly. He told me the story about Arnold’s skinny calves, and how he got so disgusted with them that he chopped all his jeans and pants into cutoffs. That story might be apocryphal, but I liked the lesson in that tale. Yeah, show your weak parts. Let them shame you into improving. IronGod will tell you, I always wear shorts to the gym now.
http://www.anabolicfitness.net/images/bj/fdbc.jpg
Someone asked me on that other thread if I could have gotten to where I am gear-free, or with milder/shorter cycles. To tell you the truth, I don’t know the answer to that, but ... I really doubt it. Remember where it was I started. Check that first pic at the top of the other thread. Then, until cutting back in frequency a bit when training with IronGod, I'd been lifting 2 hours a day, 6 days a week, for nearly 8 years, and I'd been stuck down in the high 180’s for a coon's age. So, I've not exactly been at the head of the line for handing out natty-newbie gains. Keep in mind my age, too. 52. Even 5lbs a year of quality mass would be really remarkable gains at my age, and there are only so many years before the "Game Over" sign comes on ... so ... I seriously doubt whether I could have gotten into this good a shape without quite a steady dose of anabolic/androgenic steroids. Maybe I could have gotten to this bodyweight gear-free in a few more years– probably could have, since I’m not that big, not at 6'0" 208lbs, and simple training and diet is most of the battle in getting big, for all of us - but I doubt the gains would have been of equal "quality," and I certainly could not have gotten this youthful looking. See for yourself. That’s what I appreciate most about steroids, that they keep you youthful. I bet most older guys feel that way. They know the pleasure of having people who meet them when in shorts and a tanktop express astonishment when they learn their true age. I tell people I look young because I'm immature, and immature people always look young ... but ... that’s only half the reason, the other is anabolics. Yep.
http://www.anabolicfitness.net/images/bj/qtr.jpg
I can honestly say that I have never looked or felt better than I do today. Let me say that again, it’s such a luxury for a 52 year old man to say these words: I-have-never-looked-or-felt-better-than-I-do-today, right this minute. Heh heh. Hah-hah-HAH!!! YEAH! Thank you, Adolf Butenandt!
Give you an example ... I like to take a walk in the late evening around my neighborhood, after the sun goes down. Just a brisk 40-minute walk, cover maybe 3 miles or so. Well, lately I've taken to walking just in gymshorts, shirtless, with only deerskin moccasins on my feet. I'll tell you something: To walk alone ... under the moon ... a cool wind buffeting your nearly bare body ... fit and tight and feeling at the top of your game ... Man! That is a succulent, intoxicating feeling. It's a true "peak experience," in Maslow’s terms. One I very highly recommend. But I doubt if more than one in a hundred men my age ever indulge in such luxurious physicality. Yeah.
Be well. Thanks for the opportunity to post this update. Be happy, lift heavy, and journey safely, brothers.
Bjaarki
... Then, do what you have to do.
Hmmmm ... Well ... Much to my surprise, it looks like the good gnomes around here saw fit to resurrect that old thread, "Pics on my 50th," and the nearly 2-year-old training photos at the top of it.
http://anabolicfitness.infopop.net/2/OpenTopic?a=tpc&s=702093973&f=312093973&m=6253066323
Wasn’t my idea. Now people have been posting to it like it’s new – Fukkenshredded wrote me a beautiful note of well-wishes (I love that guy!), and plenty of other brothers, too, guys have been calling me up and wishing me a happy birthday. But look ... that thread is OLD, bros. So, since it got bumped it would be silly to not post an update, with pics. At the top of the other thread I had just turned 50. Today, I am about to turn 52. So, nearly two years have gone by since I shot those pics and scandalized my grad student, Pilar, by having her download them onto her office computer. She’s over the trauma, by the way. She’s seen much worse than Speedos from me, and suspects worse still, now.
During the time between the posting of my 50th birthday thread and the posting of this one, I was always here, always posting, always visible. So you all know pretty much exactly what I was up to the whole time. For about half of the time I continued to train hard but was using no gear at all. Nothing. Bupkes. I mean nothing, not even ephedrine, not even creatine. You all know about that. Some of you kid me about it and refer to that time as "Bjaarki’s Anti-Gear Campaign," or "When Bjaarki Saw the Lord" ... heh-heh. But it was never that. I was never anti-gear. I was just in what turned out to be a very useful period of sober reflection, one from which I emerged a year ago with the plan to use anabolics in a 4-on/2-off pattern, never stacking more than 2 anabolics, never going above 1g/wk combined anabolics, never using orals, and never using cutting drugs. If I violated any of those 5 rules, I told myself, I would put down anabolics altogether, just like I’d already done, until I could straighten my head out.
What an excellent, intelligent plan! But ... so much for excellent, intelligent plans. Why should I lie? That whole thing went overboard pretty quickly. The 4-on/2-off thing morphed into an 8-on/4-off thing and then into a pretty steady always-on/never-off kind of thing until it turned out I’ve been pretty much "on" all the time for the past year. Yeah, I seem, almost by default, to have come to Ulter’s position (I think Mr. N. is there, too) that gear for older guys is just HRT with a turbocharger. That’s right. Keep it light but keep it goin’! That’s not true for younger guys, they should take plenty of "off" time to give their endocrine systems a chance to re-regulate, but us older guys, our endocrine systems are bailing out, anyway, and if I have anything to say about it, I’ll just stay on 'til doomsday. I’ve been pretty good about the rule of using just simple stacks – not always, I will run EQ along with my usual program for a a couple of months as often as I can source good EQ – and fair-to-middlin’ on dose limits. I pretty much limit things to 500-1000mg of test, and 400-700mg/wk of tren, sometimes test alone or test and EQ, usually about 1g/wk combined, though often quite a bit over that. Yeah. Then I said I wouldn’t use orals, but I’ve been using dbol the last few weeks and getting excellent results ... and I ran for awhile post-workout slin at 10IU and still do that sometimes. Yeah, then there’s cutting drugs. I said I wouldn’t use them. But I really really dug a cycle of T3, Thermorexin and some clen and a little Lasix that I finished a month ago, and will do it again as soon as I can. So I broke pretty much all of my self-imposed rules, but what can I do about that? I said I would put down steroids altogether until I could straighten my head out if any of this happened, then all of it did happen, and now I'll be damned if I'll give up gear. Well ... I promised you honesty, not integrity ...
As some of you know, at the beginning of the year I started training regularly with IronGod and FitnessChick. IG has you pay a lot of attention to basics and to nutrition – "Miss a workout, but don’t miss a meal!" He is an excellent observer and diagnostician who identifies your weak points, and I would in fact say that my physique has changed more since starting to train with IronGod than it did in the prior several years. With his help, I actually got a shape – no volume, but a shape – to my calves. IG really is the evil genius of weight lifting, no doubt about it, everyone who has trained with him will tell you that.
As for some update pics: The full-body shot (there are those Speedos again, Pilar!) was taken about a month ago. I weighed about 199 then, and had just finished the T3 with test and tren. The lighting sucks and you can’t see any detail, but it’s the only shot I have head to toe, and it shows you my general size at my height of 6'0".
http://www.anabolicfitness.net/images/bj/fdbc1.jpg
In the last month I folded in some very good Russian dbol into my usual test/tren program, and just took these other pics, where my weight is back up hovering just south of 210. That's close to 15 lbs heavier than I was 2 years ago. I’ve decided I love dbol. Heh heh. I’ve been threatening lately to use 15mg of dbol and 75 of tren everyday for the rest of my life. Not really ... but there would be worse ways to go.
http://www.anabolicfitness.net/images/bj/fsb.jpg
Bodyfat, I think, has edged up a point or two, but most of the gains over the last two years have been in the form of extra size in my upper body, a little in my legs, as these pics clearly show. My arms are 17" cold, sometimes a little more, even after dieting. Waist is 33", an inch more than I like. My chest, back and especially my delts have really popped out the last few months. My legs (I know!) are pathetic, but I’m not hiding them anymore, and IronGod is kicking my ass about them regularly. He told me the story about Arnold’s skinny calves, and how he got so disgusted with them that he chopped all his jeans and pants into cutoffs. That story might be apocryphal, but I liked the lesson in that tale. Yeah, show your weak parts. Let them shame you into improving. IronGod will tell you, I always wear shorts to the gym now.
http://www.anabolicfitness.net/images/bj/fdbc.jpg
Someone asked me on that other thread if I could have gotten to where I am gear-free, or with milder/shorter cycles. To tell you the truth, I don’t know the answer to that, but ... I really doubt it. Remember where it was I started. Check that first pic at the top of the other thread. Then, until cutting back in frequency a bit when training with IronGod, I'd been lifting 2 hours a day, 6 days a week, for nearly 8 years, and I'd been stuck down in the high 180’s for a coon's age. So, I've not exactly been at the head of the line for handing out natty-newbie gains. Keep in mind my age, too. 52. Even 5lbs a year of quality mass would be really remarkable gains at my age, and there are only so many years before the "Game Over" sign comes on ... so ... I seriously doubt whether I could have gotten into this good a shape without quite a steady dose of anabolic/androgenic steroids. Maybe I could have gotten to this bodyweight gear-free in a few more years– probably could have, since I’m not that big, not at 6'0" 208lbs, and simple training and diet is most of the battle in getting big, for all of us - but I doubt the gains would have been of equal "quality," and I certainly could not have gotten this youthful looking. See for yourself. That’s what I appreciate most about steroids, that they keep you youthful. I bet most older guys feel that way. They know the pleasure of having people who meet them when in shorts and a tanktop express astonishment when they learn their true age. I tell people I look young because I'm immature, and immature people always look young ... but ... that’s only half the reason, the other is anabolics. Yep.
http://www.anabolicfitness.net/images/bj/qtr.jpg
I can honestly say that I have never looked or felt better than I do today. Let me say that again, it’s such a luxury for a 52 year old man to say these words: I-have-never-looked-or-felt-better-than-I-do-today, right this minute. Heh heh. Hah-hah-HAH!!! YEAH! Thank you, Adolf Butenandt!
Give you an example ... I like to take a walk in the late evening around my neighborhood, after the sun goes down. Just a brisk 40-minute walk, cover maybe 3 miles or so. Well, lately I've taken to walking just in gymshorts, shirtless, with only deerskin moccasins on my feet. I'll tell you something: To walk alone ... under the moon ... a cool wind buffeting your nearly bare body ... fit and tight and feeling at the top of your game ... Man! That is a succulent, intoxicating feeling. It's a true "peak experience," in Maslow’s terms. One I very highly recommend. But I doubt if more than one in a hundred men my age ever indulge in such luxurious physicality. Yeah.
Be well. Thanks for the opportunity to post this update. Be happy, lift heavy, and journey safely, brothers.
Bjaarki
... Then, do what you have to do.